Hai Assalamualaikum. Hari ni, 08072012, SMKIH mengadakan kejohanan balapan dan padang dekat stadium MPS. Aku, Mya, Cha, Jihah, and Yun pergi dengan cikgu Zaini. Harini memang KRS gempak laaa. Even BANYAK gila salah, tapi tetap menang. Heee. Tadi buat persembahan memang best. Tapi memang malu laaa. Sebab dia duduk betul betul duduk depan aku and boleh pulak aku salah kekanan lurus. huuu. serious malu. Memang tak pandang muka dia langsung lepas tuu. Masa perbarisan first first memang aku rasa pening gilaaa. Panas pulak tuu. Lepas tu pandang atas tempat duduk tu, cari punya cari punya cari, naru jumpa atok tuu. Tengok rambut dia, Ya Allah, sakainyaaa. memang rimas tengok rambut diaa. Tapi takpa. Hihi. Lepas tu kan, time nak habis, tunggu keputusan semua, Sedi fotografi tak rasmi. Pandang laaa dia jugaaak. Dalam hati sebenarnya nak tangkap gambar dengan diaa. Tapi maluu. Last last beranikan diri jugak.  Heee. Gambar ngan dia da duaa. Mesti korang fikir, eleh dua je kan. Tapi dia ni susah nak tangkap gambar. So, aku sangat happy. Hihi. Tinggi dia ? Tetap sama dengan aku. Heeee. Rindunya dekat diaaa. lama tak lepak sama sama. Haiaaa. Haha. Takpa takpa. Sabar maryam. K laaah. tu je nak cerita sebenarnyaa. Heeee. Gambar dia dengan aku ? Eksklusif. Aku sorang je boleh ada. Hihihi

Berhabuk sudaaah ;)

Hai hai hai. Assalamualaikum. Lama gila gila gila tak update blog kan. Sampai ada orang tu marah aku and asyik tanya aku bila aku nak update blog ni. Ye I know you miss me. I miss you too. Haha. LOL. Okaaay kawan okay. Baru dapat full result for peperiksaan pertengahan tahun. Result tersangat sangat sangat laaa teruk. Jangan tanya berapa. tak sanggup nak bagi tahu. I will study harder and smarter. Tolong ehh. Hmm. My life ? Hmm. Ntah laa. Okay kott. One thing my sayang farah ajar aku, Jangan sayang orang lain lebih dari aku sayang dia. Haha. Time dia cakap ni aku tengah sesak nafas. Boleh pulak dia buat lawak. Haha. Aku sayang kau laaa Farah. Hee. Aku couple ngan dia pun sebab nak lupakan orang tu. Tapi aku rasa aku still ada feeling lagi dekat dia walaupun aku sayang jugak dekat couple aku ni. So maknanya dia kawan istimewa aku. Aku taknak lost contact dengan dia. Ingat tau u. Jangan u berani sombong dengan I. Lempang satu kang u dapat. Haha. Rindu ohh nak lepak dengan u. Haha. Weekk. Couple aku ? Percaya tak dia budak form 4 and dia laaa budak yang orang kata apa, gangster. Haha. Tapi aku tak kesah. Janji dia baik dengan aku and dia dengar cakap aku. Dia dengar cakap aku bila aku suruh dia berhenti smoke. Hope sangat dia tak tipu aku cakap dia da berhenti. Aku memang jarang jumpa dia pun. So hopefully laaa.

Now, nak cerita pasal marah pulak. Ada ke hari tu dia pernah post kat wall ex dia cakap yang 'saya sayang awak     kawan ' . Lepas tu boleh pulak main balas balas comment. Memang tak laa. Dah laa aku tengah badmood time tu. dengan tak sihatnya dengan selsemanya. Memang susah laa kan dia nak pujuk aku. tapi aku okay da sekarang. Sweet ? huh. Landsung tak -,- . Sekarang ni pulak aku tengah geram kat jantan sorang kat rumah aku. Kerja dia tido membungkang je dekat rumah ni. Mak suruh amik taknak. Kalau dah tahu tak reti nak bangun, jangan amik kereta laaa bongok. aku tak suka. Hapar ada anak lelaki tapi tak gunaa. Huh. Aku tak suka laki harem macam nih. Tolong jangan contohi yaa. Haha. Aku rasa da banyak kot aku membebel hari ni. Bila ada kesempatan aku update lagi kay sayang blogiie. Hee. Iloveyouall. Especially Capital S and Capital F ;)

Hai Assalamualaikum. Kesian Blog kita da lama tak update. Takda masa laaa. Soooo BUSY. I'm living my life happily now. I'm happy with my friends and families and teachers. Enjoying my school day as it would be my last year. My feelings ? My heart ? How to say ahh ? If malay they would say 'Jiwa Kacau' . I'm so confused with my feelings right now. When I see couples everywhere and how sweet they could be, I missed him. But my ego had stopped me from contacting him since 21st march.

Oh yeah, 21st march is when all my seniors take their result. I was so nervous as if it was me who gonna take the result. I teased him about taking the result before that day. The truth is, that day, I didnt tugas because I was waiting for him. I was waiting for like two hours but I didnt see him while all my friends keep telling me they saw him and asked me about his result. I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA. Dont ask me. I breaks my heart. FYI, my heart is as sensitive as a 5 year old girl okaaay. So please beware. Haha. LOL. Okaay what else haa ? Hmm. No idea. Kbaai

Hai Assalamualaikum. Ktahu da lama tak update kan. Serious busy kot sekarang. Almost everyday balik lambat. Then bila balik siap siap makan mandi solat semua terus pergi tuition. K serious penat.

Now life aku more to friend and school. Boys ? Hmm. I don't know. I still think about him. I never forget him. But dia macam malas da nak text or IM aku so aku pun tak nak kesah dah laaaa. I wish my feeling toward him will gone. I wish he'd say that he's no longer love me so that I can let him go. And I wish, I'll not miss him  like I do right now. How I wish all of this will happen.

I need someone right now. But I can't seem to find the right person for that someone. And suddenly it hit me. I don't really have real friend. From hundreds of friends in FB,  Numerous number of friends in school, I just don't have that one person I can share all of my happiness, my sadness, my joy and all that. I'm so pathetic right. Yeah I am. No one want me. I'm just a nobody.

I need someone to stop my tears from flowing. Oh yea.
Sorry for breaking my promise to you.
Sorry I lie to you about being okay.
Sorry for pretending and for being a hypocrite.
I really am. I don't know how to say this to you.

I'm so sorry :'(

I know its hard

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Hai. da lama kan tak update. Like lama gilaaaaaaaaaa. Haa. Like ada orang nak baca pulak kan. 

Kay. boleh tukar bahasa tak ? Jap ehh ^^

Okay. Here we go. Actually the reason I wanted to write here is because I want to announce something

I'm officially done with him.

that's all. thank you. It's a long story. And I don't have the courage to write here. My tears might burst out. AGAIN. But I promised him that I won't cry because it seems to hurt him that I'm crying because of him. But what can I do, I'm a sensitive girl. But I'll try not to cry. He said that this is just temporary cause it seems like he's having a problem that he won't tell me. But who knows right. Anything can happen. Beside, we never go out together. All I can say here is, Iloveyousomuch and Imissyousomuch. You've never done anything wrong to me. Please stop apologising. It hurts me. That's all. Live your life happily. All I want is for you to be happy. Okay, before I cry again, I'll stop here. Goodbye :)

Don't make my life miserable ! ! !

I Hate it when I;m period. It makes me wanna punch someone and scream my voice out. To my LOVELY someone, Plaesa please please make sure you CLEAN MY room WHen ever you made a mess out of it. Especially when I'm period My emosion is up and down. I ****ing hate it. Ohmaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiii. If every time you came back and made a mess in MY room and never clean it, I think you better stay at you dorm or whatever. Just because you;re sick, doesnt mean you can do anything ! Just because you have that and made you can't move, Doesnt mean you can't get up. If you can walk to another room to on call with your beloved boyfriend, you surely can do it ! Seriously, DON'T MESS UP WITH ME WHEN I'M MENSTRUATE ! UNDERSTOOD !

Hai Assalamualaikum, finally, hari ni  dapat jugak online. baru 3 hari sekolah tapi da macam busy setahun. Memang banyak kerja. Nak buat jadual pengawas laaa, ronda laaa, jadual lagi and lagi and lagi. Pening tau sebenarnya buat jadual nih. Aku terpaksa guna masa belajar untuk buat jadual sebab nak cepat. yang Kp aku si Saifullah tu dia duduk sebelah aku dalam kelas memang happy gila. Kerja dia, ronda, ronda, ronda. Aku je yang banyak paperwork. Apa apa paperwork mest cikgu suruh aku. tapi takpa. Aku suka mem-busy kan diri. Sekarang kan, miss Nirmala suruh tulis jurnal tiap tiap hari so jarang laaa online blog ni.

Tadi minah text suruh call. Then aku call laa. Dia cakap dia pergi JJ jumpa 'dia' . Then minah cakap, kayrolzzzzzzzzzzz suruh pesan bagi tahu aku handphone dia hilang lagi. LAGI . Da 3 ke 4 kali phone dia hilang termasuk yang ni. Untung laaa kaya da kerja boleh main hilang hilang phone kan. Ish, suka sangat kan -.- . Okay saya admit saya rindu dia sangat sangat. Imissyousomuch. da bape hari tak text since start sekolah hari tu. Lama kan ? Tapi dia kerja, nak buat macam mana. Takpa laaa. Yang I tahu, I sayang you okay. Takecare. Iloveyou. and and and, jangan kerja kuat sangat. Rest laaa sekali sekala kay :D

Happy New Yeawww

Hai Assalamualaikum. Okay, Even da lewat 30 minit nak wish, I still wanna wish you all a Happy New Year To all my sayang bloggers, facebookers, KPs, Muslims, Idealians, Al-Aminians and to all that know me. I wish 2012 will lead to a whole new life and of course, better life. Learn form your mistake. Never forget Allah. Be a good child and a good students.

To all SPM candidates 2012, this year is the year we have to push ourself to the fullest. No more playing, sleeping, and etc.

to you, I hope we will stay as long as we can. Iloveyou and I hope you do the same. Thanks for being the light in my life. Ily, ahy, imy <3

to Maryam Faahkaruddin, This is it. This year you really have to push yourself. Make sure you make your parents and teachers proud. So all your responsibility as a daughter, a student, and a leader. Always remember Allah is beside you.

SPM candidates 2012,

Maryam :)

*sweet kan ? Geli ? Kesah ? *

Hai Assalamualaikum you. This post is specially for you. Nampak gambar tu ? Sweet kan ? Bila I tengok teringat kat you. Haha. Okaay, da gilaaa. Tapi kan tapi kan tapi kan, memang I suka gila tengok gambar tuu. So sweeeet. Awww <3 <3 <3

There's always a first time for eveything

Hai Assalamualaikum. you know what, semalam aku pergi main futsal. First time woahh. Myra ahh call aku pagi pagi time aku tido agi ajak gi main kat Selayang Mall. Entah kenapa aku cakap okay. Then pukul 4.30 aku gerak ngan minah. Sampai sana je jumpa diorang naik atas, main. First perempuan lawan laki
Maryam, Minah, Myra, Ailim, Shaa vs Nawar, Syed, Aney, Safwan, Mukhlis . Aku da laaa tak reti main. Sepak macm apa jee. Lepas tu tukar team. Minah ngan aku tukar ngan Nawar and safwan. Time ni minah main gempak. Banyak goal pulaaak. Haha. Then tukar lagi, minah ngan safwan tukar. Like aku sorang je perempuan dalam group tuu. Da laaa aku tak reti main. Okaay Whatever. Nak cerita, semalam memang penat + fun gilaaa. Gelaaak je memanjang. Enjoy ahh :)

Hai Assalamualaikum. Saya nak story dekat awok sikit. Last sunday kan, my family went out to Kuala Kubu Bharu. Saja laaa nak jalan jalan. Da bosan sangat duduk rumah. Da sampai sana, makan apa semua, kitorang decide nak naik Frasier's Hill. Serious hari tu angin gila kuat and sejuk gila. Since kitorang tak planning dari awal nak naik, so tak pakai laaa sweater. Memang menggigil habis laa. Sampai sampai cari masjid dulu solat. Kat situ kan, bunga dia cantik cantik and angin dia pun segar. Lepas da snap snap picture semua, kitorang turun dekat yang jam tuu. then snap snap lagi. Tiba tiba kakak aku ajak pergi beli souvenir. Mak bagi rm70. kitorang habiskan beli t-shirt dua and magnet yang lekat kat peti ais tu tiga. Hee. 

Then mak tanya 

mak : " hangpa habiskan semua duit tu ke ?"

Me : " Aah. Hehe *senyum kambing*"

mak : " Mak bagi 20 tu suruh jangan pecah 50 tuu "

Me : *senyum kambing konon nak lembutkan hati mak jangan marah*

After that, planning nak balik da laaa sebab da pukul 6 lebih. Tiba tiba kaaaan . . . . Kereta tak boleh start. Masa tu like, Ohmaaaaiii. Kitorang mintak tolong sorang doktor ni nak 'jump-start' pun tak boleh. Call punya call punya call, result dia, kitorang tak boleh balik, tidur sana, and yang paling best, tidur dalam keretea sebab takda bilik daa. Semua penuh. Kitorang tak kesah. Then malam tu kitorang jalan jalan, main bubble yang sabun tu, snap picture lagi * yeah. kitorang kaki snap* . Main carom sekat sejam lebih then tidur. Next morning balik lepas subuh. Tu pun tumpang orang turun pergi stesen KTM Kuala kubu. balik balik, tidur, mandi, hantar kak nab balik poli, makan kat bigfoot * tempat ni awesome gilaa. Walaupun mahal sikit, still awesome.* . Then balik rumah, tidur. Heee. Okay, entry ni sangat panjang. Nak masukkan gambar ? Malas boleh ? Hee. Annyeongg. Assalamualaikum :)

Sincerely,

maryam

I know how you feel

Tadi kan tadi kan, aku baca blog kawan aku ni tau. Dia cerita laa pasal kawan dia yang da mula lupakan dia, tak hargai dia and whatsoever. Okaay. Untuk awak yang saya sayang dan rindu : Aku faham apa kau rasa weh, aku lagi rasa macam tuu. Orang yang aku rasa aku rapat dengan dia and dia hargai aku, rupanyaa tidak. Kita je yang over. You see, bila aku baca blog diorang, list diorang yang diorang buat name tuu, sorang pun tak tulis nama aku. Except for two people yang aku tahu memang sayang aku and aku pun sayang diorang sangat sangat. Aai, don't worry. walau pun dia buat macam tu, bare this in mind. ramai lagi yang sayang kau. Aku sayang kau. Kalau dia macam tu, kau biar jee. Kalau dia ingat kau, dia pergi dengan kau. Kalau tak, jangan kesah sangaat. Susah hidup kau nanti kalau kau selalu berfikiran macam tuu. Takpa laaa. Kalau dia takda ngan kau, ramai lagi yang akan dengan kau termasuk aku okaaay ? Iloveyou laaa <3

sincerely, 

maryam 

I'm so noob

Hai Assalamualaikum. Nak cakap ni jee. Can anyone please help me edit my bloooog >.< . I'm so noob. Okay thank you. Bye . Assalamualaikum :)

2011 Awsomeness

Hai Assalamualaikum peeps.It's almost the end of the year. I'll be entering 2012 with full of confident, hard-working and excited mood *Ihope* . I really do miss my friends. I have a  flashback about what I've gone through this year.

 January - Nothing much. First month entering form 4. Yeahh, This month most of it we like, judge the teacher about their teaching method and whether we like it or not

February - Same laaa. Boring school routine. Wake up, go to school, back from school, tuition, online, sleep.

March - This month, I went to Biodiversity camp at Terengganu for 5 days during the school break. It was hell lot of fun. I meet new and old friends. Mostly new. They are all so awesome. I met with Furqon, my old friends. People say we look alike and and and, one of the trainors like so annoying with us cause we always stick together because we're in the same group. I really do miss them. gambar nak ? 

*Thirah, Hanim, Amal, Me <3*

*Kami sekeluarga <3*

*Me and pacik sakai Furqon *

April - Hmm. Setahu aku, nothing big

May - Mid term exam, taknak cite result. sedih T.T . And I also made the biggest mistake ever T.T . I broke up with him -,-

June - Realising my mistake. Trying to persuade him. He didnt ready yet. I't okay. As long as I can be his friend.:)

July - Typical school and alsoo, Puasa :) and yeah, I found new boy that came when I'm in mess -,-

August.- Puasa lagi. and and and, RAYA ^^

September - Around  19th, I broke up with him. First It really upsetting me. Then,  from the advice that my friend gave me, I stand up again. ALhamdulillah. Now, We're friends kan mok kan ^^ . At the end of the month also, I join one camp for all the head prefect all over selangor. So cool. I posted about it already. So no need to explain again aitee ? ^^

October - Nothing big. Just the scary final exam -,-. I screwed up a lot. I made another big mistake -,-

November - Still exam, then, after exam, I went for a camp for muslim pupil. Leadership camp for muslim student Gombak district. Cool aitee ? Then a lot of work given by teachers ^^

Dicember - Boring likee errrrgggghhhhh -,-. 

That's all for now, Anyeongg ^^

I'm Yours

Hai Assalamualaikum, Since saya da ready, Ni nak umumkan, pada 1.05 am 14.12.11, I'm officially his. Who ? FHJ. Heee. Okay, to you, Thanks for open your heart to me, I love you. I happy dengan you. Lagi lagi bila text ngan you. You suka buat lawak bodoh kan. ilove you and I always do. Like I normally say, Today, Tomorrow, and Forever, Iloveyou. That's all for now. Annyeong ^^

Hai Assalamualaikum, nak tahu taaak, Kita kann, tiba tiba je malam ni teringat dekat sorang kawan lama kita taw. nama dia, Nurulhusna Binti Ahmad Kamarul Helmy aka Husna Elmo dekat Fb dia tuu. Ntah kenapa, rindu sangat dekat dia. Lama tak jumpa. Tahun ni langsung takdok. Cedih jee. Btw btw, Pesanan untuk Unaaa :-
Weh kau, kau kau, aku rindu kau doi. Lama gilaaa tak jumpaa. Yelaa. Orang tu happy dengan dia punyaaa bf. Baca blog pun, alolololo, so shuweeeet. Heee. Weh, bila nak jumpa, Bila nak hangout sama sama macam dulu. Merayap KLCC laaa, mandi laa whatsoever tuuu. Seyes rindu kauu. Kau pun combong nan aku kan *euuuwww. Ayat rempit kau* . Haha. Weh weh weh, serious rindu kaaauuu ! Muah muah *Bangga taw dapat kiss dari aku. jarang orang dapat tau* Heee. okay, last but not least, iloveyouuu :P Tu jee. Byebye. Assalamualaikum, Annyeong ^^

*See this girl ? Ni laa una. Gedik kan. Haha. Kau comel laaa*

Hai awak, Yeah awak, saya rindu awak. Awak tak rindu saya ke ? Oh yelaa. Siapa laa saya ni kan. Cuti ni bosan laa. Takda siapa ajak keluar. Cuti 1 bulan setengah ni saya duduk rumah, pergi tuition je taw. Sedih nyaa. Hmm. takpa laaa. Heee. Eh eh, dah nak sekolah laaa. Tak sabar laa. Excited taw nak pergi sekolah. Yang pasti, saya akan lebih berusaha tahun depan. Saya takkan buat benda bodoh macam tahun nih. Hanya sorang je tahu apa tu. Hee. Apa apa pun, nanti saya nak pergi shopping barang sekolah. Cita cita saya nak study dekat luar negara. Tapi tak tahu lagi nak study apa. Pelik kan. Haishh. K laah. Anyeongg. Btw, you, saranghae <3

Yours truly,

maryam 

From the bottom of my heart

To tell you the truth, I don't feel like I have so many true friends now. They already moved on. It makes me so sad. But still, I love all my friends although I know they don't really care whether I'm there or not. I'm just a person that they forget easily.  it's not like I want them to be by my side all the time. I just want them to appreciate me. All the people that I think would love me and remember me truly does not. when I see their blog and their list of name that love the most, none of them have my name. yeahh. I know this is nonsense. but i can't help it. it's just what I feel. I can't tell other people but only you. For those who read this, just keep it to yourself. Don't talk to me about this. I might burst out with tears. i hope you understand. whatever it is, Iloveyou friend <3 <3 <3

 *this shows how much iloveher*

Oh hey, I forgot about someone. it;s my ketot metot comel lotey gedik, Lim lim. Heee. She's one bestfriend that i became close with this year. She is Ailim Norshamila Binti Abdul Rahim Lem.. Although I just get close to her this year because we're in the same class, But, it feels like we've known each other for years. She's someone that I can tell all my problems to. She always give me advie and always calm me down. She's someone I can trust the most right now. Save the best for the last. Iloveyou Lim Lim